birthdays galore part 1

i guess when you're nearing your 30's, it's inevitable not to feel excited when your birthday arrives. it's not usually normal for all, but for my case, it's a resounding fact.

my day started with plenty of birthday greetings... they really made me smile. niño did a little surprise for me and i can't still stop myself from smiling everytime i remember it. he came out of the same mrt station as mine and i wasn't aware of that as i was in a hurry to beat the clock for the morning rush. when i logged in the timesheet, bossing told me that i had a delivery at the reception area downstairs. so i hurriedly went down, but nobody was there. i just decided to go back then bossing saw me and told me to hurry because the delivery was outside the door of our office! and then i saw dadi... he was holding a very big bunch of pink and red roses. i was speechless. i was so shy going back to my desk holding the pretty flowers. people were all looking in awe as well, even my boss stood up from her desk to take a peek.

the thing is, the night before my birthday, he kept on telling me that he's sorry for not being able to give me any surprises. i wasn't really shocked because we're never used to the idea of flowers and those stuffs. but i admit, i was quite disappointed. i guess i'm the same as the other romantic girls out there. would u believe that for almost 6years of our being together, this is the 2nd time he gave me flowers. *smile smile again :) kilig!*

another funny thing, while he was spilling how sorry he was, he had already plotted the plan in his mind. the day before my birthday, sunday, tita juvs and i went to the market. apparently, while we were away, he took our savings atm wahahahahah!!! very naughty indeed.

it was really a very pleasant day :)

guilty as charged

yes, i'm guilty... i'm guilty of procrastination. i haven't been participating much in the w@w discussion although i've been silently searching for some bands to play on our reception. we need a group who can play oldies but goodies music. i've also been on the look-out for a good florist and stylist for our bouquets and decorations. so far, i have shortlisted some and since tet uy seems nice and good at flowers and styling, we will schedule a meeting with her.

same goes with my hair and make-up artist. my coordinator, teena, advised that i should do my trial hair and make-up already when we get home this march. we might not have enough time when we get home a week before the big day.

hmmm... what else? ahh yeah, i've also been communicating with newly wed brides to get some feedbacks on some of their suppliers.

well, i guess that's all for now...

thoughts

how do you love your enemies? it's one of the greatest commandments that's also the most difficult. i have seen how vicious man can be just to taste the sweetness of revenge. i have seen life thrown out of waste for the times spent on planning vengeance. but after these, has the pain die down with your victory of finding that person beneath the ashes or hollowed below grief?

we just can't deny the fact that we want to pull ahead of the pact and be on the brink of success. but to the expense of stepping onto another person's being is a disgrace. i guess it's man's instinct, survival of the fittest as they say. i just couldn't imagine how some people enjoy other people's misfortunes and difficulties. life is a continuous struggle to learn. it's very disappointing that some people are so blinded by success and happiness that they forget to feel for other people's misery.

it's so difficult to approach someone close to your heart who is floating in the clouds of ecstasy and suddenly breaking that moment with your grief and sorrow. a true friend in that person will never see your difficulties as a disturbance to him. he'll share with your anxieties even if it bores him to death to listen to your whining and crying. after all, when all has been said and time has passed, he will come to heal. and what's important is that you've been a part of it every single second of his climb towards enlightenment. isn't that more fulfilling, giving joy and sharing the miracle of holding on to each other through good and bad times.

i think it's wonderful :)


*ganito ata talaga pag tumatanda... hihihi*

simple gestures

the time that i stayed late in the office til 8:30pm with my user, dadi and i were suppose to meet our friends and have dinner at suntec by 7:30pm. i just asked them to go ahead and i'll try to catch up. dadi niño met eram, jolens and hani while i took the mrt to get there as soon as i can. and dadi niño waited for me and accompanied me with my very late dinner. i was very thankful that they were there and i was relieved out from my toxic work. we later met with ulrik, jen and their daughter yanah who just flew in recently. dadi was there to cheer me up and we both enjoyed our friends' company.

the following day, dadi and i watched a movie together with jolens and eram at marina and had a good laugh with borat mwehehehe... we malled around to find us a nice pair of jeans. dadi was trying to exchange his jeans bought from giordano the other day which apparently he disliked after trying it at home. we looked for other outlets but couldn't find a decent one that time so we ended up buying me an esprit jeans. gosh, i'm just sooo excited to own my first esprit 'thing'. on dec.31, we went around orchard and there it was at takashimaya outlet that we're able to get hold of his jeans. dadi asked me to find a good wallet at guess who was having a year-end sale, he said it was his late christmas gift. i was hesitant at first but he was so persistent *and i liked his pushing me to buy it hahahaha* so i gave in. and 'guess' what, he picked out a nice bag to go with the wallet... aaaaaawww i was so touched... my heart melted with so much love and affection.

i was in the office for our implementation until 10:30pm last jan3, and at around 8:45pm, niño was at the lobby of toa payoh waiting for me. at around 9:30pm i told him off and ask him to attend to our sons' needs. it's also nixon's first day in school and we're all so excited for him. i was so touched that dadi even bothered to pick me up even if he was dead tired from waking up so early to take nixon to school and from working til late in the evening.

the other night, while i was trying to put noah to sleep on the sofa, dadi put a pillow beneath my legs and head. aaaawww another touching moment. i'm just so blessed to have a very supportive and understanding husband who's sensitive enough to ease my pain and answer my needs *and wants as well*. he never much complained... all he needed was a good night kiss and snuggle before falling to sleep. (",)

bring it on

tomorrow is the first day of work for this year and i dreaded this day since last year, dec.29, the last office day for 2006. jan.3 is our implementation date and it's the first oh so major project that i went through without a help from my project leader.

i was supposed to give my reply to our agent about my extension with hdb but due to the fact that i can't face that at that moment, i just asked my agent to get my reply next week after our implementation. and his reply: "ok, will wait for reply on jan.3". *talk about consideration...* so tomorrow night, hopefully, i will be able to draft my reply and send it, if my work permits me to go home early.

tomorrow, also, is nixon's first day in school. imagine how much it breaks my heart not to be able to accompany him on his first day because of my f@&#%$g work! so i just asked niño to bring him to school tomorrow and i'll be with nixon on thursday.

i've been sighing the whole day thinking about things... on what reply i'll give my agent... on how things would turn out for our implementation... on my son's first school day... on noah's upcoming 1st birthday... on saving up for our vacation to pinas this coming march... on moving on to another job... i've been trying to convince myself to do it one day at a time. i know it's pathetic because i usually give this piece of advise to my friends, but when it comes unto you, you just can't help but worry especially being away from your families and friends back home. before, it was easy because you can always turn to them, but this time, when you have your own family, you have to decide for the betterment of all your futures.

on the matter regarding my work, i've been browsing through jobstreet and was relieved to have found some postings on new jobs across sg. the other night, in between niño's snoring, i came to realize that as much as i wanted to stay with hdb, i feel that i can't stay with my work together with my current project leader. sure, he's nice and all but the fact stays that professionally, his working habits are getting into my nerves. imagine the stress and load he's passing on to me when he was suppose to help me out and encourage me. my user stayed with me til late last friday night just so we could be able to cover most of their requirements when it's suppose to be my pl's task. so i just told my husband that i might just find another 'condusive' job. but my options to stay are still open... i just need to hang on.