64

...and to add insult to injury... upon arriving home last night and kissing my noah good night, he sleep talked and said, "i told you it should be 64!"

bummer hehehe it's haunting me!

riser

she was sitting on a sofa across me in a living room or an office reception area... i couldn't really tell. there was somber & melancholy emanating from her. i asked her how she's doing. her lips trembled as she replied, "i'm fine.. i suppose." she told me she's working somewhere in outram park mrt station, near the riser building. she was wearing long sleeves office jacket and skirt, all in black.

when i woke up, i had the sudden urge to call her and say hello.

mixed up tape

before i forget the details, here goes what transpired in my dreams last night.

dadi and i were walking along the beach, then suddenly there was a mini tsunami that washed us ashore! i was crying out loud for dadi's name then i found him but couldn't see me. apparently he got temporary deafness so i had to come over him. we moved out and went inside our hotel somewhere far away from the beach. i remember seeing the sky gray.

then the scene shifted. i was in this huge vintage hotel and was about to bathe on one of the bathrooms in the 2nd floor to the right of the staircase. i left my things and went back down to get something. when i came back, the bathroom was gone! i had to search the rooms manned by butlers in uniform and they just looked at me on my bathrobe. i remember walking the corridors to the left and climbing up huge staircases. i think that bathroom was forever lost in my dream.

the next scene consisted of people i didn't know, in a land i don't even recognize. i was on top of this balancing seesaw kind of thing. it's made of wooden ladder on top of a wooden triangle underneath. i was perched flat on top and was afraid to move for if i shift, the whole thing will turn around and i don't like that coz i get very dizzy. i don't know how i got down coz the next thing i saw were 2 women and a man in front of me asking for their pictures to be taken. they were a caucasian lot. the other girl was the ex-girl of the man and the camera was with her. she wouldn't hand it over because she hates the new girl that her man is seeing now. but the man insisted that the ex-girl hand the camera over to me so i could take their picture. it ended up me taking the picture of all three sitting together with the man in the middle.

the little one dreams

noah usually comes to our bed every time he wakes up in the morning and shares his night dreams.

just the other day, he told us that he dreamt that he was with tita juvs (our nanny) going to the market. at the meat shop, the owner told him that he was fat!!! haha it really bothered him while he was telling the tale. he believes his tummy is getting smaller so he is not fat anymore. :)

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the little one celebrated his birthday last february 10 with a CNY theme... he's turning 7 this friday. oh how time flies! i wished for time to slow down just a little bit for you to remain my little tabachingching... we love you bebeng dear!

*photo grabbed from mrsjanxazarcon via instagram*

new leaf

well hello there! i have ignored my little space for almost a year! no excuses, no explanations. let's just continue where we left off...

had another dream and its bordering between wild and scary... we were on a rescue helicopter going back to the evacuation center. i remember being on the chopper standing up and looking out the window. then there was a sudden jolt, and seconds later, the engines stopped! we started falling!!! it felt so real, like riding an elevator that's out of control! the last thought i remembered before it crashed was praying for my 2 boys :( my exact words were, "Kayo na po bahala sa mga anak ko" (please take care of my children).

i have yet to find out the meaning of this dream.

dream journal

i hate myself for being lazy to grab my fone and jot down the thoughts in my mind whenever it comes reeling in. too confident, knowing that i will remember it later, but actually i don't. so i have piles and piles of notes in my head that just faded away. by the time i sit down to face my blank notepad for blogging, i don't know what to write. now here i am, finally jotting down an entry which should have been composed 4months ago.

i'd like to document my weird dreams... maybe someday, somehow, someone would be able to explain to me what it means. or maybe, i just want to keep them because normally, we forget dreams the moment we wake up and just remember fragments.

a. ok so if you're sensitive, don't read this. again, i warned you. i saw in a toilet bowl, a white dove, crawling out of brown grinded stuff, like sand on water. does that even have a translation???

b. holding a big brown rat on his tail. ok, i should've warned you.

c. high school reunion with karen and keith. i don't know why their faces are so vivid.

d. sharing grapes with friends, janx and trina.

e. i saw a friend who fainted in my dream. i guess it was a reminder for me to tell her of what transpired the other day.

strangers in the night

i've been having dreams of people i have not seen in my entire life. when i wake up, i would see their faces in my mind... the dream is so vivid. i can remember features, colors, clothes, expressions, emotions. i don't really know what it means. if its premonition, then why have i not seen them still? so strange...

sometimes i would even dream about being in another place, in another time, in another circumstance. but the memories of these dreams won't last 'til i finally wake up. i could only remember glimpse of some details. but i know in my heart and mind that i was somewhere else.

maybe i'm reading too much philip pullman and j.k. rowling.