first entry on 2015

the title is a dead giveaway.

2014 flew by in a flash. admittedly, i had time, but i was speechless. guilty as charged, i was threading in unfamiliar surroundings that offered few worthy memos. and so this year, instead of planning (as with my reliance to physical planners), i have decided to trust Evernote for my everyday mementos. yes, a journal indeed. and i have started using the Calendar app in my fone.

and to add flavor, i made a pact to myself.. to make each day count. (i don't want to pressure myself into resolutions.) if not each day, at least each month. i have encouraged myself not only to write, but also to go back to my love of cooking and baking. each month is an adventure to explore taste buds, and tinker with the oven. for this month, nothing new but more of familiarizing thyself with my specialties.

new colleagues also encouraged me to my habit of reading. i have three new books to add to my stack. therefore, i am attempting to read at least six-ten books this year using Goodreads to track my progress. first on my list is Catch-22.. maybe a review could follow afterwards. 

so ifone, don't fail, don't get stolen, don't get lost, don't swim towards the toilet.

january. lets begin.

an open letter

my ever dearest beloved friends,

how can i begin to write a letter about the end? i am not really good at saying good byes... i usually freeze or do not speak of it at all. maybe it's my way of escaping the reality... of us parting ways. in denial... but right now, i have to send this out before time runs out and the moment pass by.

as i read your sweet short messages today, i am left with silent tears rolling down my cheeks. suddenly, all memories came flooding in... of laughter, jokes, grievances, awkward moments, crying fits, shared secrets, mummy advices, barbeque parties, children's parties, bridal showers, baby showers, mourning and weeping, money matters, drinking sessions and of course, chismax sessions!

in each of you, i have shared and relish different experiences and stories. they are all etched and kept in my heart and memories. my husband often tease me of my being 'historical'... i don't really mind, but he does :D who would have thought that in all these years, we still kept the friendship alive and the camaraderie flaming. you have been there in all my struggles and failures, success and survival... i am very blessed indeed to have you all in our lives.

i would like to thank you all for the journey here in Singapore and the Philippines. our children are who they are because each and everyone of you contributed to the holistic abilities of what they are right now. you have been our guide and our inspiration, so we are grateful in your participation towards our children's progress.

as cliche as this may sound, this is not really good bye... but a 'see you later!'. we are only 7.5-8hours flight away from you. thank Jobs & Gates for the phenomenal technology updates! we can keep in touch from timezones away, no excuses! =)

'til then...

calm after the storm

you would think i'm craving for words... to write and scribble and shout at the big blog space that's been empty for a long time... Well, You're Definitely RIGHT! 

i'm all out screaming inside my head just to breathe and let out all thoughts and emotions bundled up in my heart and mind. yes, i really did breathe out a deep sigh of releif. i can finally let it all out! after a year of ups and downs, the roller coaster ride of my career and our life plan... now we begin with another chapter in our lives! a real tear-jerker of a move that we hope could bring us to our final destination called Home.

from the past week, dadi and i have gathered our strengths and let our mananger in to the secret. yes, we are leaving SG for good. and, i have formally filed for my resignation. it brought me into meditation and much thought...  literally, i had been caught in a daze, lost in my own thoughts, wondering what could happen next.

i hope i could document here our baby steps to our exodus. right now, we have accomplished sending back most of our things back to PH. we have contacted IOM for our migration details. we have exchanged information from friends across the land. we have touched based with the possible school for the boys. our fundings is still an ongoing thing but we believe that He always provides.

=)