Finally!

After 3months of deciding which design of chuck taylor to buy and postponing it until we finalize what we wanted, we bought our own pairs of converse sneakers! Yahooo!!! Originally, I wanted to buy a pair of mine back in Manila last march when we had our vacation. When we got back here in SG, dadi and I decided to get ourselves a pair with the same design that would be nice for both of us. So here they are… =)

I’ve been trying to avoid the inevitable, trying to delay what is supposed to be. I faced it, alas! It carved a mark in my heart and soul. And now I’m so lost and confused. I’m trying my best to be a better person... to be a loving wife, a doting mother, a responsible daughter, a reliable sister, an objective friend, a hardworking employee, a just member of the society. Does one really have to carry the task and burden of such? I’m asking for more patience, guidance and counsel, of love and understanding, of hope that eventually things will get better. Enough of the leaping out of faith, I’ll retire myself for what is to come. Who knows if I can get back the urge to fight back again and conquer the odds, but for now, I’m just tired. I’ve been hiding and fighting too much, and I’m missing a lot.

Awed

The other night while I was putting my little boys to sleep, Nixon suddenly asked if he could pray first before sleeping. I was astounded and caught off guard. I’m not prepared what to say while guiding him to his prayer. But suddenly he started reciting the Lord’s prayer (Our Father…), the Hail Mary and Glory be. I didn’t say anything after he finished. He said goodnight and I answered back a sweet goodnight to him. Then I smiled and said a thank you to God. My son is really growing fast. He’s now 5years old… and I’m one proud parent.

By the way, he also knows how to look at the time on our wall clock. =)

the new...

me...


dadi...


nixon...


noah...


and my new fone...hihihi!

latest

after coming back from my pinas vacation, i was immediately rolled in to another project in sgx. my other project was in UAT (user acceptance testing) phase so the ball was with the users. we were waiting for feedback and approval. the new project entails more program changes and cumbersome tasks since we were assigned to make official documentations as well. the worst part was that i got sick with tonsilitis for a week so my performance was not at its peak.

we had a small celebration for blessie's birthday at surfNturf in suntec. we also helped faye and rommel moved out from their condo. we met some friends and had lunch to welcome them here in sg. i went back to my yoga classes just last week.

blessie's birthday celeb @surfNturf




the best thing that happened lately was that i had been pronounced by our company as a permanent staff after 4months of my probationary period. yiippee! it's nice to enjoy the perks and of course it would mean assurance somehow for our future here in sg.

back in sg

after a week, my mom and sis were scheduled for a one week visit here in sg. my mom missed our kids so much. we visited the merlion because last time they were here, they weren't able to go there and have pictures taken near the merlion itself. my mom and sis went around sg by themselves and joined us for dinner sometimes during week days. dadi and i weren't able to take our leaves anymore but we tried to take them out after office.

we had lunch at no signboard in vivo city during the weekend, it was also our 1st time to dine there. cereal prawn was really great and abalone with veggies. the chili crab was very spicy and the fried rice was terrific. we had picture takings and the kids played in the playground even with the scorching heat. then we proceeded to chinatown for some coffee and visit. good thing the moon festival was around so the place was crowded with tourist and lots of decorations were present.

they left on a monday and as usual, my mom was very sad to leave her apos behind. she was begging us to come home on christmas. well hopefully we'd still be able to get cheap tickets this late. we'll see...

kainiz experience sa manila

one of my reasons kaya ako umuwi sa manila ay para mapalitan ang surname ni nixon. iniisip ko na sana payagan nila ko kahit ako lang maglakad ng papers. di naman kasi kabisado ng information kung tinatanong ko over the fone ung mga dapat gawin so might as well go there personally para malaman ko. i called the manila city hall to verify if they're going to get the original copies of the birth certificate and marriage license. oo daw kailangan nila kunin para may sarili din silang copy kaya nung wednesday mismo ng hapon, nagpunta kami sa NSO quezon ave. dati dun lang pupunta kung gusto mo lang magrequest ng copy. aba pagdating namin dun, wala na at kailangan na kami pumunta sa east ave branch. pagdating namin dun, buti na lang walang masyadong tao pero kakaiba talaga pila system sa atin. the following day ng 11am pa marerelease ung mga papers so iniba ko sked ko. sa umaga na lang ako pumunta sa dentist para sa hapon, pagkakuha nung papers, direcho na kami sa manila city hall.

sa manila city hall nagsimula kalbaryo ko. syempre may pila at pagkatapos ko naghintay ng 30minutes, sinabi sa kin ng legal assistant na dapat daw local copy ng birth certificate ung ipapasa, di daw ung authenticated copy. aba nagulat ako dahil ultimately, pinaka legal ang authenticated copy dahil galing pa to ng NSO at ginagamit pag kukuha ka ng passport. ayaw nila, kailangan daw talaga un local copy na nirerelease pagkapanganak ng bata na binibigay sa ospital. di ko nadala un kaya sabi ng ale, kuha na lang daw ako muna dun. kinabukasan ng umaga pwede na daw makuha at balik ako sa kanya. sinabi ko ung case ko na ako lang magisa andun para magasikaso pero unahin ko daw muna pagkuha nung birth cert, tsaka na lang un susunod.

the following day, friday, nakuha na namin ng umaga un birth cert. buti maikli pila kaya sandali lang ako naghintay. pagdating dun ulit sa legal assistant sabi nya schedule for interview daw kami mag-asawa. sabi ko nga sa kanya kahapon na ako lang mag-isa. ayun di daw pwede. araykupu! akala ko naman ok na, biglang kailangan pa daw ng affidavit of legitimacy from phil. embassy sg tapos papa-authenticate sa DFA sa pinas bago ipapasa ulit sa kanila. manang naman! sana sinabi mo na lang sa kin kahapon para di na lng ako nagbayad ulit para kumuha nung local copy at di nasayang oras namin bumalik dun kundi din naman pala maaayos. haaaayyyyy!!! gobyerno nga naman talaga naten! pano ba tayo aasenso nyan!? pambihira!

back home

i was able to get a leave from office last minute to attend my kumareng faye and rommel's wedding in pinas on sept1. i booked my tickets on the 1st week of august, sure thing, ticket prices were soaring high even for budget airlines. so i just took jetstar going to manila then cebupac to flyback to sg. i was really excited to go back home after some few months and its an experience to fly alone. i was not really happy leaving dadi and the kids behind but its way over our budget if everybody comes along. besides, we won't be able to bring the kids to the wedding coz its an adults affair and nixon's school is still up until aug31.

aug29, my flight to manila was 7.50am. dadi was kind enough to take me to the airport. we had a quick breakfast after checking in then i headed to the boarding area. the experience wasn't that bad (i really hate flying). i was able to get a little nap and the middle seat wasn't occupied so there was more space to move. after the plane landed, i got out, met my mom and sis and we walked all the way out of the airport to get a cab.

at home we had lunch together then proceeded to my dentist afterwards. unfortunately his clinic is closed on wednesdays so we just went to NSO office in east avenue. i really hated how our government system works out to serve our people but thats another story i'm going to write about in my blog. we just settled going to sm north edsa by that afternoon til evening to buy some stuffs i needed to bring back to sg.

the next day i went to my dentist early in the morning. berna, my mom and i went to have lunch at jollibee then proceeded to manila city hall. from there, my mom left us to hear mass at st. jude while berna and i proceeded to glorieta to meet my other sis grace and her boyfriend aljo. i went around landmark first to buy my evening bag and some yoga pants and of course my automatic umbrella hehe. aljo treated us to gerry's grill bcoz he got promoted then berna left afterwards to be with her friends while grace, aljo and i catched a movie, a love story hehehe. it was nice and exciting bcoz its been a very long time since i was able to watch a tagalog movie in manila.

friday, i woke up early again to go back to manila city hall (for nothing gggggrrrrrr). my mom and i went to hear friday mass at quiapo then went home for lunch. blessie and i met at megamall to have our nails done and go malling. we met with faye who was relaxing herself at ricky reyes salon. i must say that megamall had flourished into a more sightful experience than before. so i'm happy again to be back there. blessie and i parted our ways early bcoz she has to meet with her friends and i had to get back home to rest. unfortunately i got lost on my way home. i took the mrt and i thought that getting off at north station would be hard since the puv's there are stationed farther. i jumped out to quezon ave instead. but there were no more cabs waiting on the exit so i was left with no option other than to go to sm north edsa and have my mom pick me up from there.

sept1, i went to my dentist early in the morning to get my retainers then proceeded to david's salon in trinoma for my hair and makeup. i met up with kati who had her eyebrows threaded and had her hair done also. we went back to my place to change our clothes then hailed a cab to go to san sebastian church. luckily we were accompanied by my mom and bro so we didn't lose our way and traffic was not bad so we came in early. we met up with blessie and her sis debbie. i had a little chat with annie, a housemate of faye who's living in US with her hubby and son. the ceremony started on time, i was the reader during the mass so i was able to see everything up close. it was nice to watch rommel crying while faye was doing her bridal march..aaww a very touching sight. the reception was held at wack wack golf and country club in san juan. food was great and everyone enjoyed themselves.

the following day, i heared mass with my family and we had lunch at chef d angelo's in trinoma. i did some last minute shopping then we went home afterwards. my sis grace and aljo visited me that night before i leave for sg. come monday i fixed my things and had few more moments with my mom then they accompanied me to NAIA. it was kinda tearful actually when we were inside the cab. who knows when i can come back to manila again. but it was really refreshing to take a break and visit everyone back home.

dadi's birthday

before anything else, i'd like to greet my dadi rak a very happy birthday! we celebrated it at new york new york cafe in one raffles link after office. i made reservations and asked for a mini cake for him to blow a candle. we were so stuffed with baby back ribs and quarter chicken pasta... yum! i gave him a very nice dog tag necklace that i knew he really liked to have. after that we watched a movie at plaza singapura. it was the 3rd installment for jason bourne's life story, the bourne ultimatum.

it was plain and simple fun...the way we used to celebrate our birthdays back in pinas. its a breather and refresher for both of us. i'm glad dadi loved his day. i enjoyed it as well. =)

highs and lows

i've been attending yoga classes lately, i think for about a month now. so far, the best thing i was able to conquer was drinking sodas (a.k.a coke). its also a good way to sweat, i never knew that it's helpful to my perspiration glands. i gave up on gyms because it gets boring after some time and the fact that i don't sweat out during sessions. i have also been able to spend some time with my friends blessie, faye, sheryl and ethel. i've gained new ones as well... our pinay consultant mae, then there's dholly and eloisa.

the downside is dadi and i don't get to share so much time anymore because we don't go home together during my yoga days. he also has his jogging regime as he has gained an inclination to marathons. it started last july with a 5km fun run courtesy of his officemate and now he joined a 12km marathon for august 26. so our schedules hardly meet whenever i have my yoga or he has his jogging preparation sked.

i think right now dadi is very comfortable with his physique. most of our friends said that he lost a lot of weight. i'm not too sure about mine hehe... i guess mine would take a little while for results to start popping. but if it wasn't for faye's upcoming wedding, i think i won't really be interested attending yoga. but i realized that it helped me alot in dealing with my weight problems. =)

p.s. i haven't still made up my mind about harry potter hehe..

welcome to the world kenita =)

congratulations to our friends katrina and ken for a beautiful bouncing 8lbs baby girl. her name, kirstin kayleigh kiunisala (kkk diba ang kulet?)... katipunera for short hehehe

chatting with nixon

dadi: hey nixon, what do you want to be when you grow up?

nixon: i want to be able to reach number 10. *note: our hdb flat is on the 8th floor, nixon likes to press the elevator buttons. basta addict sya pumindot ng elevator.*

dadi: no, what i mean is when you finish school, what kind of work do you want to do? you want to be a pilot? the one who flies the airplanes and helicopters?

nixon: hmmm i don't think i want to be a pilot.

dadi: why??!

nixon: because i don't want to be away from my family!

oo nga naman, how sweet diba? eto pa, let's continue with the conversation...

dadi: ahh ok *smiles and looks at me*. how about an engineer or architect? you know they are the ones making the buildings and houses.

nixon: but i don't want to carry heavy blocks. *orayt!*

then there's this one night when we were walking at a 7-11 store, i saw some marshmallows and asked nixon if he liked some MARSHMALLOWS.

nixon: it's not marshmAllows... it's marshmEllows! *ayun dapat pala slang*

another scene where nixon saw me wearing my eyeglasses...

nixon: mami, why are you wearing those spectacles?

duh??! anak where did you get your vocabularies?! parang dejavu nung what color is this and he answered purple, pwede namang violet na lng diba? hahahahaha!!!

ayun lang, kids can sometimes be so fascinating while growing up.
=)

blog hopping

today was one of those idle days in the office. there was supposed to be a testing using my laptop but my office mate was out doing his other project so i was left with reading some training materials for the other upcoming projects. the best side of this is having internet access *hoorraayy! bless the cyberspace technology*.

so i was reading through my pile of mails with my other yahoo account and a message from multiply updates gave me an interest. there was a link for kc concepcion's account. i got interested so i clicked on the link and i enjoyed reading her entries and looking at the pictures. though some words are in french *i think*, still i was mighty proud of that gal...why? i was initially expecting a high profiled blogsite in pure english contents, but what i read were entries spoken from the heart containing words of our native tongue. and her entries were really life as it is happening to her, not any bragging account of fashion and high society rubbish or gimiks that 'normal' society people like us only dream about. it was so nice of her to share humbly some of the places she's been to and some experiences she has encountered. so i decided to add her to my list of blogfriendness.

*parang nahiya tuloy ako at gusto ko na din mag-add ng tagalog words dito paminsan minsan when i feel like it nyahahaha*

another nice find was the blogsite of a good friend who was supposed to be my gownmaker if our wedding would have pushed through. veluz reyes, aka mama veluz as i fondly called her, just recently updated her blogsite *thank goodness*. i was really amazed at her artwork gown designs that really shows off the beauty and uniqueness of each of her brides. i was also laughing through some narrations of her experiences with the different brides she had. the latest entry i read was really funny, i could just imagine how much patience she has within her powers to endure the stress hahahaha...

my take on harry

i'm definitely a big fan of jk rowling's harry potter series. having read the first four books for 3x already and the fifth and sixth book 2x is an evidence that i don't tire myself reading it all over again. the first book's movie was shown in pinas last nov.1 of 2005. i actually gave birth to my eldest on oct.25 2005 and went to the movie house at megamall on the 1st showing day just to watch it with dadi niño. hehe fanatic talaga... we even have a dvd collection of the movies shown except for the 5th installment which is not out in the market yet.

the latest movie, order of the phoenix, was admittedly quite boring but was not that bad. i myself didn't really enjoyed reading the book itself so much because it had so many pages and so many side stories. i guess we can't blame the book for being written that way because rowling was just doing justice to each character in harry potter's life, why they turned out to be good wizards and some into villains. some might not really appreciate the movie due to the fact that there were less animations and off-the-seats-wow experience like we had during the 4th movie. harry was most of the time 'angry' at book 5, well practically because of his loss (sirius) and that most people would not believe him that voldemort is back. more agravatingly, the so-called wanna-be-popular and miss-know-it-all professor umbridge was on the scene exploiting the power handed to her by the ministry to take charge of hogwarts.

now that the last installment to the harry potter series book is out in the market, i'm not sure if i want to join the bandwagon and buy the book. somehow i have reservations because it would mean the end... the end of waiting what's next and anticipating more actions and adventures. it was how i felt when i had to buy the last book for the shopaholic series of sophie kinsella. i really really loved those books that i'm willing to read them again by end of this year.

maybe it's just the feeling of elatedness whenever harry vanquishes the evil that makes it more exciting. and how friends would really stick up with you come what may. and how our emotions and feelings for our loved ones suffer also when we're in pain so its best that we move away from them. it's still human nature that is evident even in the magical world. and it was nice that rowling didn't concentrate so much on the divinities and powers beyond humans.

as for the deathly hallows, well i still have to contemplate whether i'll just borrow a copy or get one myself or collect the books altogether or maybe wait for the completion of the movies... we'll see. i'll let you know my decision in time. =)

just a quick birthday greeting

hey hey friendly friends! just wanna greet each and everyone for this month's celebration...

roll call!

july 14 - edgardo 'jun' cruz

july 18 - roy of sgx

july 20 - oliver coloma

july 21 - pader lew dime

july 22 - weng micua

july 23 - raul of sgx

july 27 - rommel 'ffg' abdon

july 28 - cupie bernskie

to my friends, cheers to more fruitful years and blessed life ahead! =)
*don't forget your treats... and for those who already did, thank you very much hehehe!*

anniversary special

(pardon me for the long post)


until now i can't help but smile and laugh and be teary-eyed all at the same time whenever i reminisce our anniversary weekend. yeah, we had two days of celebration hehehe..i just want to share with you how we celebrated our 2nd year anniversary.

i finally decided to buy niño his favorite perfume. it's sentimental for both of us since it brought us together. well, i admit, i was so into 'his presence' whenever i remember that scent when he passes by. he emptied his perfume way back in pinas and haven't gotten around buying a new one since then. it's gss (great singapore sale), so we went to robinsons mall to see their offer. and i knew then that i have to buy it for him.

on july 5, thursday, i found a window of time to buy my gift for him. when i got there, the packaging that we liked, which includes the two miniature bottles, was out of stock. even the biggest size (125ml) wasn't available anymore. i decided to get the 75ml bottle and bought another one with a twist on the scent that has the 125ml bottle. good thing the sales guy found a separate miniature bottle in a pretty packaging and threw in some more freebies. so you could imagine how difficult it would be for me to hide all those things from him. i didn't have time to have them wrapped, i proceeded to our meeting place in suntec. niño was very surprised when i handed him his 'gifts'. his smile won't rub off hehe. he won't stop saying thank you until the next day.

our anniversary falls on a sunday, we decided to have our celebration on saturday, july 7, and have a simple dinner perhaps on sunday itself. we booked die hard 4 in plaza singapura for the 4pm show. initially, we had new york new york restaurant in mind for our dinner but after the movie, we were starved and we don't want to travel to get there only to find ourselves still on queue after an hour or so. we went to carl's jr instead and ate a different meal for a change. we agreed to have dinner at new york new york the following evening or some other days.

the night was still young so we went bag hunting on the malls along orchard road. actually i have been checking on an esprit bag but was still looking for other designs. after the pain of walking, niño finally blurted out that i should just buy the bag that i originally wanted. it was getting late then so i think it's better i heed to his request before he changes his mind hehe. i also got myself an 'everyday sandals' which i told him i would cut from my monthly allowance. while on our way home, he asked if he was able to meet the price of the gift that i gave him and i said, you're halfway there (this line would be the understatement of the year after you finish reading this blog entry). we got home and watched some few episodes of lost and dozed off. but at the stroke of midnight, we both greeted each other happy anniversary.


on the day itself...

sunday july 8, we allowed tita juvs to have her day off. we heard mass at 11am but before that, a delivery of a dozen roses knocked on our door and niño gave it to me while i was dressing up. i was so surprised and happy. they were beautiful scarlet red american roses and the petals were so velvetty. in the afternoon, he reminded me that we'll have dinner that night but actually i wasn't in the mood coz of the gloomy weather. he took a bath and i tended to the kids. tita juvs arrived shortly after niño finished so i went in to bathe.

when i got into the room, i was surprised to see niño putting on slacks and polo. i was pressured to find a decent dress to fit in and he kept asking me to hurry up. i was getting pissed that time coz i was already perspiring. so i wore something nice and we went out. inside the mrt he asked me if we could pass by a place he'd like to see and shoot some pictures... i agreed. we got off at city hall mrt and walked into raffles shopping mall and passed through a corridor. then we were inside the stamford swissotel. we got into the elevator and went all the way up to the 70th floor.

the view was breathtaking... i was in awe. we took some pictures and had few chitchats with the hotel guests. after a while, i asked him if we were already leaving and he told me no because we're going to have our dinner there. OMIGOSH i was speechless for a while then i composed myself after some time. he had a reservation in a window seat corner of the equinox restaurant and the view again was stunning. we were served with port wine and some bread and butter. our appetizers came in, a sumptuous half dozen of oysters and watermelon salad with goat cheese. it taste different from the usual food we have but it was delighting. our main dish was salmon with shitake mushroom for me, and veggie dish for niño. after that i excused myself and went to the ladies' room.

when i came back, there was a wrapped box with a ribbon on my table side. i thought that it was a complimentary gift from the restaurant. but when i read the card tag, my hands shaked and i was beginning to feel that any moment, my tears will just trickle down. i opened it... and it was the guess watch i've been eyeing for two months already. so i cried and kept saying omigosh omigosh this ain't happening. i was smiling so madly that the corners of my lips were almost touching my ears and felt my tears roll down on my cheeks as well. it was a priceless moment, and i couldn't have asked for more.

(back track on the story of the watch)

i initially got attracted with the heart-shaped design guess watch when i saw it on a billboard at tangs department store. i walked into the place and searched for it and viewed it in person. it was two-toned silver and gold color, i showed it to niño that time.

after a while, i was beginning to get so obsessed with it that everytime we passed by a guess shop, i would always take a peek at their watch collections. i looked at the tag price and checked if the price has dropped already hehehe.. it even happened once that i bumped my head on the display window in raffles shopping mall, with another woman peeking through the glass. it was so damn hard hit that i felt my world wiggle a few seconds. the woman catched my gaze and said a loud, 'OUCHE!', while staring at me. i was so embarassed! niño kept to himself and after the woman left, he gave in to his bursting laughter. (nyahahaha i'm sure you're doing the same thing right now... stop!)

sad to say, that wasn't the first time (hrrmmpphh!). i bumped into the window in another department store while peeking (again) on the guess watch. this time by myself only without any spectators (whew!). and for the third time (geez i know it's pathetic already) after peeking again back on the same window where i first hit my head. (so you could just imagine how much i wanted it bwahahahaha). this time i was already having my eyes on a different design, it was chainlike gold and copper. the initial heart-shaped two-toned watch design that i liked was out of stock already for most stores (so sad).

(fast forward to our dinner date)

niño asked me if i liked his gift..well of course i answered a big YES! imagine, i wasn't expecting that he was still able to find the original design that i liked. and the most touching part is knowing how much effort he has put into making this wonderful event very special. he made me feel so loved and cared for. i never thought he'd go an extra mile for me...and i'm very thankful to him.

i asked him why he bought that design when i was already eyeing a new design lately. he answered, "we have lots of memories together with that watch and i knew how much you wanted it.". yeah i could just imagine myself everytime i looked at the time, i would laugh at the thought of how it ended up on my wrist. =)

surviving my 1st month

i have survived one month of my probationary period, and now i'm counting to five remaining months. it felt like it was a long period of time for me because i'm not used to being busy most of the time. now, since our company has a deadline for sgx (singapore exchange), i have to live by with their schedule and expectations. i can't say i'm ahead or behind schedule because the truth is, i'm learning their system along the way. and coping up was made easy by people i now consider friends here in sgx. thanks to them, i'm able to get by gradually.

in the past month, i've seen some people leave their post and new ones take over. i got to know more about the inside system and how things work around the place. i saw some old friends during lunch and dinner time at lau pasat (a huge hawker in front of sgx). dadi and i were able to have lunch togethers on fridays. and the best thing of all, we ride the same mrt together in the morning (he comes off at city hall and i come off at raffles place) and at the end of the day, we go home together. sweet! =D

7 random things

I've been tagged by faye.

I must post the rules, 7 random things about me and then tag others to do the same. Sound fair enough, right? These are the rules… each player starts with 7 random facts about themselves on their Blog. People who are tagged need to blog 7 facts about themselves and post the rules as well. At the end of their blog list 7 people you are tagging. Let them know that they are tagged by leaving them a comment.

1. i'm happily married with dadi niño with two wonderful kids, malcolm nixon and miguel noah. they are 5yrs. old and 1yr. old respectively.

2. i'm a caffeine addict also, like my kumare. but previously i'm more addicted to coke soda and never drank coffee. i learned taking coffee when i came here in sg and be around faye, blessie and michelle. and now, a night out wouldn't be complete without taking a sip after dinner. it's a nice way also for us to catch up.

3. my life long dream of exploration is a euro tour. i'm fascinated by artifacts, edifices and especially churches and domes. i know it sounds boring but for me, it feels like traveling back through time and appreciating beauty *naks!*.

4. my outlets: shopping malls or food indulgences or beauty salons. that's right. but since things are way expensive here in sg, i prefer to window shop. food, well the cheapest and fastest cure i could think of is a mars or milky way chocolate bar. i don't grow my nails anymore but i used to have them groomed to make me feel better. a haircut is a no-no nowadays (mahal mgpa-rebond no! sayang! hahahah).

5. i'm a frustrated singer/dancer. i know how to dance but it's not what you can call a 'stage performance potential'. i know how to sing, if singing means being able to sing in tune with the melody. but overall, its just ok (nyahahaha pagbigyan na lang).

6. i want to retire as a professor/teacher someday. it was actually what i wanted to take up during college but due to some financial circumstances, i have to pursue computer engineering. but i'm still hoping that someday i could take up education courses and be able to pay it forward.

7. i'm in the process of learning on how to take life one day at a time right now. i have a tendency to panic and over react to situations most of the times that i ended up crying with frustrations. maybe i just worry too much, but now i'm trying to focus all my energies to the present so i can better enjoy my friends, especially my hubby and kids. =)

now i will tag kuya david, pazette, len oliver, luzel and bernaks.

his amazing grace

"i'm just sharing, by far, my best miracle that made me have more faith in god. truly a demonstration of god's power and love."


the lord's amazing grace has touched my heart and our lives. i was never expecting any miracles to happen this big to us, but it did and i would like to share it to you.

the 2nd week of may was a critical week for us. it would determine whether nixon would still enroll in his school for the next term. it would determine whether tita juvs would need to find a new employer. it would determine whether i and my kids would go back home to pinas and i would have to look for a job there as well. it would determine whether dadi and ice should move out of our condo if that happens. it could affect both our families back home in pinas. and among other things, it would affect our savings for the future.

a week before that, ice, our housemate, and i had a chat. i told her the things that were bothering me and how it would affect everyone including her. she showed genuine concern and we both had a moment of prayer. she was doing a pray over for me. she asked god to give us strength and wisdom to withstand our trials at this time. she asked that my application be picked in the lottery and that i would be able to find a job that would best fit our situation and needs. and i told her that maybe even one request would be enough for us. ice said something that striked me a lot, she said, "god is a powerful god and he is a good god so if we need anything, we can just ask for them all.

guess what, last may 8 at 11:45pm, a call came in to tell me the news that my application was picked in the lottery and that the processing will now continue and i just have to wait til october for the papers to come out. i was jumping with joy when i knocked on ice's room that night even if she was already asleep. that same day also during the afternoon, i had a interview meeting with an agent who would find me a suitable job here in sg.

the following day, may 9, he emailed me about an interview with a prospective client and gave me the details. on may 10, i went to the interview and i was offered a job on the spot. that night i went knocking on ice's door again to tell her that it does happen. that god is really a powerful god and he granted all our prayers. it was also my sis berna's birthday so i called home and greeted her and told them about the good news. i thanked them also for praying for me and my family.

then on may 11, my previous agent texted me and told me that my documents and refunds were ready for pick-up. god is really good. he knew that we needed that extra money so come monday morning, may 14, the last day of enrollment, i was able to pay for nixon's tuition for the next school term. i can also send financial help to my siblings back home for their school tuitions.

god is good all the time, he never ceases to love us even in our most darkest hour. after realizing things about life, i never lost hope and i believed that god is going to provide and answer our needs. he will never abandon us, he may seem distant but he never forgets. he may not give us answers immediately, but he fulfills his promises in due time. praise god for he is the almighty father. thank you very much for all the blessings.

fairy tales

i grew up with believing so much with a 'fairy tale' perspective. my idea of life was that there would be a really major obstacle that would greatly affect me and after defeating my foes, there will be a "happily ever after" scenario. eventually there would be other decision making challenges in the future but after conquering that major obstacle, the upcoming challenges would be lighter.

as i come of age in my twenties, i began to wonder where is that "happily ever after" thing going to happen to me. i mean i keep hitting on, for me what seems to be, my major obstacleS but it's not getting any lighter. then just recently, i started realizing that life is not like the one's we used to believe in fairy tales.

life is a continuous struggle to live and let live. dadi nino helped me through with that enlightenment. it's a process of learning and realizing your goals as you gain your wisdom. you make decisions and priorities according to people who will be affected and how it will make you grow as a person. so now, i don't ask dadi every now and then the question, "when will the struggles end?". i know now that life isn't life without the everyday challenges that we have to live by. the decisions, whether big or small, is always there to keep us into the action of life. we just have to mentally take down notes and learn from every experience. :)