self-worth

one of my favorite movies which i can watch on repeat. people are eccentric, special, and querky in maybe the most subtle way. we'll only recognize them if we pay attention. 

yes, i deserve better. 

"the way people treat you is a statement about who they are as a human being. it is not a statement about you." - anonymous 

SAF 44

even after staying abroad for more than 10years, i still love my home country and would like to go back soon if fate permits. but maybe just for a vacation to be with family and friends, and also to explore the beautiful islands that we haven't been to. 

in the context of going back to settle for good, i don't think so. the battle of citizens with paying taxes, gruesome traffic, unrelenting government officials and rampant crimes are enough factors to stay away. 

with the recent events that took place in Mindanao, the 'mis-encounter' incident between the 44 SAF members and the MILF, the country again was shaken. how can the officials involved in the operation not plan the whole thing properly without sacrificing those lives? no proper coordination, that is their excuse. and why was it that the suspended official was the one who manipulated the operation? why did the president allow this puppetry?

i have seen the hearing sessions of the senators and the people in question who were involved. it is very frustrating how these representatives conduct the sessions... everything was in chaos! it took almost 30minutes at the beginning just to introduce the parties, to agree on the conduct of participants, and to decide on the next session of the hearing (even though they have not yet progressed). and most of the participants, would say irrelevant statements or senseless thoughts, just to be heard and known. oh well, election time is near. 

one of the most powerful statement that affected me the most was from Philippine National Police OIC Deputy Director General Leonardo Espina. he was emotional during his speech delivery seeking justice for the 44 Special Action Force troopers' lives that was claimed in Mamasapano, Maguindanao. 

justice for the fallen SAF 44... no to Bangsamoro Basic Law!!!

 

word

That is why it is so important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Don't expect to get anything back, don't expect recognition for your efforts, don't expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Complete the circle. Not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. Stop being who you were and become who you are.

Paulo Coelho, The Zahir

nostalgia

the first movie of 2014 for us is 47 ronins. of course i miss watching keanu reeves on the screen. my first book read is 'and the mountains echoed' by khaled hosseini.. 'twas recommended by a good friend.

today i had an appointment in suntec city. suddenly i found myself remembering the first time i set foot in this place. it was my first trip to singapore to spend christmas with dadi last 2004. upon arrival at home and leaving my luggages behind, we went out to buy gifts for that night. there was going to be a christmas house party with friends. it was the first time i met tita les, tita abby, mader cecel and pader lew and the rest of the gang.

i'm sure that in the next few days of our stay here in singapore, i would be looking back at our first's for the usual places we go to.

way of lent: free yourself

it was the worst turning point in my life... and you left me.

i forgive you.

half awake, half asleep

i usually hate myself the following night when i'm in the middle of REM of sleeping... my mind usually goes on a roll and starts blogging! so the hate happens coz i would forget what i was writing in my head. i would usually convince myself that i would remember to jot it down the next day. but NO! so now i'm making myself write before really going to sleep. blame it on the anesthesia.

maybe that's why i have vivid dreams... lots of thoughts running around uncomposed.

quotable quote

*title borrowed from one of jo-an's collection of phrases*

he turned his head towards me and suddenly blurted out, "you're a CATCH..."
and then he smiled... couldn't help the tears from rolling.

good night :)