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it creeps me out that for the past 3 days, i've been waking up at exactly 8:06am.. that is according to my iphone. for pete's sake, it was a weekend and i couldn't even make it to 9am!

what's more creepy was my bathroom incident this morning. everybody has gone to school and office except me and my nanny. i hurried inside the toilet and did my business. upon opening the door, it was kinda stuck so i pulled a bit harder. lo. and behold, it was tied from the outside!!! i felt my whole body frozen and scared as sh*t!

you see, we always tie it outside coz of the wind. it usually opens up when nobody's inside. so there's no way i could've done it from the inside. i hurriedly went to the kitchen and ask our nanny if she came in and she said no.

ok fine. it's the first time that the house made itself felt.

the picture below shows how it was tied from the outside so that it wouldn't open when unoccupied.

when they start pulling away

they start giving mixed signals. one moment, they'd want you to sit and eat with them during meal times. or they'd ask you to read them bed time stories and put them to sleep. the next thing you know, they are pulling away...

they would tell you, "mum, its ok, i can do it myself". they could button their own shirt, tie their own shoelaces, make their own milk, brush their teeth, bathe themselves, choose what they want to wear.

when you tell them, "i love you my little baby!", you will get an answer, "i'm not so little and not a baby anymore.".

and they would start distancing themselves when you walk around the mall. they could mingle and make friends on their own during parties and gatherings. i have mixed feelings... i am proud that they are confident and independent. but somehow sad and scared that they can be on their own and that sooner, i wouldn't really matter much.

i'm taking all the best i can right now: all the hugs, kisses, holding hands, embraces, home works together. hopeful that it wouldn't end too soon.