home stretch

today has been a series of queues and lines and test of patience.

i was asked to come in early to get a series of tests and consultations. at one point, there was a one-hour waiting time for a lab queue. and that after getting the results, the doctor was already out for lunch. bummer.

and so i decided to join the lunch hour break queue. then another set of queues for three different banks/remittance centers.

upon return to the specialist, alas! the procedure required for a test that would entail eight weeks to process! double bummer! :(

reminded myself: this is just another test of a series of more of life's challenges. i should keep looking forward, positive and encourage to better our days while waiting. we're almost at the end of the line. it's been almost a year now come march 4... how much hurt can eight more weeks do?

:)

mixed up tape

before i forget the details, here goes what transpired in my dreams last night.

dadi and i were walking along the beach, then suddenly there was a mini tsunami that washed us ashore! i was crying out loud for dadi's name then i found him but couldn't see me. apparently he got temporary deafness so i had to come over him. we moved out and went inside our hotel somewhere far away from the beach. i remember seeing the sky gray.

then the scene shifted. i was in this huge vintage hotel and was about to bathe on one of the bathrooms in the 2nd floor to the right of the staircase. i left my things and went back down to get something. when i came back, the bathroom was gone! i had to search the rooms manned by butlers in uniform and they just looked at me on my bathrobe. i remember walking the corridors to the left and climbing up huge staircases. i think that bathroom was forever lost in my dream.

the next scene consisted of people i didn't know, in a land i don't even recognize. i was on top of this balancing seesaw kind of thing. it's made of wooden ladder on top of a wooden triangle underneath. i was perched flat on top and was afraid to move for if i shift, the whole thing will turn around and i don't like that coz i get very dizzy. i don't know how i got down coz the next thing i saw were 2 women and a man in front of me asking for their pictures to be taken. they were a caucasian lot. the other girl was the ex-girl of the man and the camera was with her. she wouldn't hand it over because she hates the new girl that her man is seeing now. but the man insisted that the ex-girl hand the camera over to me so i could take their picture. it ended up me taking the picture of all three sitting together with the man in the middle.

quotable quote

*title borrowed from one of jo-an's collection of phrases*

he turned his head towards me and suddenly blurted out, "you're a CATCH..."
and then he smiled... couldn't help the tears from rolling.

good night :)

the little one dreams

noah usually comes to our bed every time he wakes up in the morning and shares his night dreams.

just the other day, he told us that he dreamt that he was with tita juvs (our nanny) going to the market. at the meat shop, the owner told him that he was fat!!! haha it really bothered him while he was telling the tale. he believes his tummy is getting smaller so he is not fat anymore. :)

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the little one celebrated his birthday last february 10 with a CNY theme... he's turning 7 this friday. oh how time flies! i wished for time to slow down just a little bit for you to remain my little tabachingching... we love you bebeng dear!

*photo grabbed from mrsjanxazarcon via instagram*

a new toyfriend :)

writing this post via the new toyfriend... loving it! now i can write my thoughts anytime without delay and having to jot down in a notepad.

new leaf

well hello there! i have ignored my little space for almost a year! no excuses, no explanations. let's just continue where we left off...

had another dream and its bordering between wild and scary... we were on a rescue helicopter going back to the evacuation center. i remember being on the chopper standing up and looking out the window. then there was a sudden jolt, and seconds later, the engines stopped! we started falling!!! it felt so real, like riding an elevator that's out of control! the last thought i remembered before it crashed was praying for my 2 boys :( my exact words were, "Kayo na po bahala sa mga anak ko" (please take care of my children).

i have yet to find out the meaning of this dream.

QT conversation with my 10year old

the 10minutes quality time i have with my boys is the best time of all my days... it's the time when we put them to bed at night. we usually have a chit chat before they go to sleep.

tonight was kinda special. my conversation with nixon is growing up.

me: good night baby... why are you so big and tall? please don't grow up so fast!

nixon: i will try *smiling*. and you know, you're different from other of my friends' moms.

me: really? how come?

nixon: well they tell them that they are big enough to own stuff

*i'm guessing this is about getting his own gadgets*

me: baby, i trust you. but i don't trust the people around you. there are bad people out there who would want to hurt you just to get your fone or playstation. we don't want to put you in that situation. and besides that, when you have more stuff, your life will be more complicated. grown-ups have that huge problem

nixon: yes like house, car, children, work, bills, debts, groceries, computers, iphone

me: yes you're right son! so why don't you enjoy life as it is right now, simple and easy. the less you have, the less your worries. just mind about your school, friends, books, tv shows, and boardgames

nixon: ok mummy... good night!